Just learned a life lesson from Train's frontman, Patrick Monahan.
Sometimes you just have to stop what you're doing and assess the situation. Are you still doing this because of your passion? Or is it because you're hungry for fame and success?
I don't want to be the type of cosplayer who chooses characters because their costume looks cool and will definitely draw attention when worn. Nor the type who'll pick the popular characters from a popular series so that they can be sure they will be recognized by a lot of people.
I want to be the typical nerd who cosplays their favorite character and spazzes with other people - who may or may not be cosplayers - who are fans of the said character or series they're in.
Maybe it's the reason why I suddenly stop and take long breaks from cosplaying. I want to remind myself of the real reason why I'm still doing this hobby. It's been, what, almost seven years already? (I'm really too old for this.
) But I keep on coming back, even after very long hiatuses (I checked. This is legit. LOL).
I really REALLY like cosplaying. Especially when I am cosplaying a favorite character of mine. And most especially when I'm cosplaying with the friends I've gained through this hobby.
There are still a lot of characters I plan to cosplay. And frankly, I'm becoming bolder in choosing the characters I'll be doing. I know that for some of them, I'll really have a hard time pulling it off. But, hey, at the end of the day, the person I really want to please is myself. I'm a big fan of each of these characters, that's why I won't ever forgive myself if I do a half assed job with cosplaying any of them.
I just hope that I will never EVER forget MY reason for doing this hobby. I pray that I will forever remain a nerd who's kinda good at make up and practices cheesy poses in front of the mirror, so that she won't look like the total dork that she is when not cosplaying.